Update 2023: Since writing this and sharing my story in 2020 I have received both supportive messages and those of hatred. I appreciate everyone who has heard me and responded with kindness, thank you. I have also received countless messages of blame and hatred from Kaypacha's cult following. Kaypacha never apologized or rose to the occasion of confronting some of the actionable steps he could have made to make amends. He continues to travel the world, enjoy the adoration and money of his cult following. He likely continues to abuse his power as a teacher. If you are considering joining him at a retreat or booking a reading…consider this first: the man is a predator and a cult leader.
https://www.gurumag.com/astrologer-kaypacha-accused-of-sexual-assault-misconduct/
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I may have stayed quiet on all of this if it had not been for the events of the past week that have lead to me coming forward when Timothy Halloren and Christina Claudill both announced their separations from New Paradigm Astrology. However, it was really hearing the stories of other women that began sharing their experience both publicly and privately that awakened the need within me to seek justice and closure for this very gross misuse and abuse of power by one of our supposed Spiritual Leaders and Wisdom Keepers. I will not let another doe eyed astrologer be put in your care without them knowing who you really are. There is no point in getting advice from someone so far off the path of integrity that he would seek to discredit those that have built him up, to call women liars, to spread more lies to his over 100k fan base. Below is an honest account from my times spent with Kaypacha and I hope that you will read it in it’s entirety before passing judgement on me for sharing. This has been the most emotionally exhausting search for truth and closure that I have ever undergone and I hope that somehow, in bringing this to light, that the darkness and shadows surrounding this particular teacher be brought into the open for the healing of our community and the safety of young astrologers everywhere.
I want to add that I had at this point had only participated in casual hook ups and I had only had one official relationship before this experience and it was a very abusive one that ended with everything I own being destroyed, car wrecked and being beaten severely with a garden hose. Kaypacha was fully aware of me coming out of this experience, the vulnerable state I was in at our meeting and that I wanted to create healthy relationships moving forward. That is why his workshops appealed so much to me, the subject matter was usually about Conscious Relationships and I wanted to learn to have one. In hosting his workshops in exotic and foreign places it really appealed to my bohemian spirit, had this just been in America I likely would have not been so inclined to go through so much effort to learn astrology from him specifically.
This is the uncensored story of a young me and my adored teacher Kaypacha.
A snippet from a lost conversation about his infidelity.
I met Kaypacha in person for the first time in March of 2015 when I was 27 years old and he was 58. I had been a fan and watched his reports since about 2013. I always resonated with his style and the reports really renewed my lifetime interest in astrology, introduced me to the idea of EA and I wanted to learn more. I would like to clarify before I get into this guru/student rose colored romance saga, I studied my ass off. Every book I read was astrology or permaculture related since 2012 and I read constantly and love learning new things all the time. Kaypacha was who I would, after meeting him, decide to learn from and choose as a teacher during that time. I read as many astrology books as I could eat up. I spent all my time really just studying and gardening and sky watching. I was always all about the stars since early childhood. This whole thing just activated the dormant astrologer in me and I did learn a great deal in my time spent in the tutelage of Kaypacha but I was and always will be my own astrologer.
I reached out to Kaypacha in the Fall of 2014 when I found out about River of the Stars conference and it happening on my home island and told him I wanted to throw him a little party at my friends waterfall property afterwards. He was first going to bring his wife but then scrapped that plan and came alone. His message was very Wooooooo and yea baby and can’t wait to come party with you!
I arrived at Kalani and was instantly way over my head. I was ten years junior to every person at this conference and everyone there was a practicing astrologer but me. I was the kid and got treated as such. I felt so out of place and uncomfortable at first, old women astrologers were especially unfriendly to me and I felt like I had came to the wrong place. After a couple days of feeling like I was not welcome as a newbie I thought to myself…fuck this. I grew up here. This is MY home. I grew up doing Hula on stage at this retreat center and I want to learn astrology and by golly I belong! I dove in.
Kaypacha and I at my friend’s waterfall the day after my party.
We chatted about lots of things at the river and he invited me to film a Kundalini yoga video in exchange for an astrology reading. It was an unflattering video to say the least. Mouth flopping...titties flopping. He is currently still selling this “course” till this day for $20 for a video download link on his site.
Seen under the arrow here
After filming the video he really started getting flirtatious with me, took me to dinner at Kalani, then we went to a sound healing. At the sound journey he asked “You can share my yoga mat with me” and I was all a flutter. I laid down next to him and he grabbed my hand and whispered “Don't the flowers smell amazing?”. After the sound journey he drove me to Kalapana to drop me at the night market because I was flying out the next day. He ended up giving me a long kiss and saying how cool I was and I love this or that about you. I was so shocked! Here was my most idolized astrologer making out with me and saying how groovy I was. It was like having your favorite Rockstar be into you, at least to me it was.
I left quite enamored with the whole thing, looked into his next workshop and two weeks booked everything to attend my first Kaypacha workshop in Mexico. The moment I got there he was grabbing my ass when I walked in front of him, really excited for me to be there. We went to several pyramids during the workshop and I recall at Tepotzlan he commented “Boy id like to fuck you right there on that pyramid”. He made other comments, and I'll admit, they excited me!
Lunch the day of my reading on 03/18/2015
The facilitator apparently was one of Laura’s friends. She observed these flirtations and at the table at lunch (this is after the workshop ended, it was me and Kaypacha and this facilitator and her friends) and she made a comment to him “Didn’t you just get married!?!” He laughed it off and said nothing. From his nonchalant reaction I made the incorrect assumption from that point that him and Laura had some kind of weird open thing.
We were supposed to exchange the yoga video for the reading but hadn’t got to it in Puna, so after everyone left, he came up to my room to do so. It is interesting until now I didn’t think much of it but in the reading he specifically mentions that what my M.O. is with my Scorpio stellium is too “Hook up with powerful people, 9th house, Powerful Teachers”. This reading was also conducted laying down on my bed which now looking back was a very inappropriate place to be having a reading done and especially since he had been offering readings at the workshop and conducted them in the retreat center’s office for everyone else .The facilitator blew up his phone with messages and tried to call him many times while he was in my room...now I assume it was on behalf of Laura.
A copy of my chart and transits for the day of the reading.
Listening back on my Natal chart reading after not doing so in some time, it is very coercive to me to start out the reading implying that I am into hooking up with “Powerful Teachers”.
He goes on to say how passive I am, will go along with what is wanted. Another now red flag in the reading I see where he is basically saying I can be had.
The Geisha thing is really weird…for obvious reasons. This is all within the first 5 minutes of my reading which was like I said conducted in my room at the retreat.
Clearly he saw a woman he could take advantage of based on what he heard in the stories I told him about my childhood, my recent (as of 8 months) abusive relationship with Malachi Prince in Hawai’i.
After my reading (which at the time thought I would cherish forever) I left once again super excited that he was so into me and really jazzed on meeting again. This would happen months later for a couple weeks in September 2015 Colorado/New Mexico. Where we attended a workshop, then a talk with Adam Sommer and later went to Tribal Vision in New Mexico and to a large talk in Santa Fe.
Kaypacha and Adam giving their lecture in Boulder.
Flyer for Tribal Vision Festival feat. Kaypacha as a speaker
We traveled in different vehicles and I arrived in New Mexico first. Kaypacha arrived at the hub house for the festival coordinator with a large bottle of Patron ready to party. We had some shots with the kitchen crew and went walking to a sundance grounds to have a smoke. We returned to the house and he invited me over to his room.
The moment Saturn went into Sagittarius Kaypacha slept with me for the first time. But it was quite unusual because he did oral on me, fingered me but then suddenly flipped me over and started fucking me in the ass without warning. I had never done that before and was quite surprised! I did say something like “Woah, why didn’t you ask about that, I’ve never had anal sex before! ” He replied that he just assumed I had. Thinking back on this, sure I consented to sex but I have never had a man not ask me first following this experience if he wanted to have anal sex with me. It is not a first fuck kind of thing. This is something that gets talked about with the person you are entering. It is also not my favorite, not very pleasurable for me but good for him I guess. Also hearing about the other women, he had the respect to fuck these white women in the vagina the first time at least! Anal is a conversation and it was not consented in this case and quite uncomfortable.
Ate some shrooms with Kaypacha and we went to a waterfall near the festival.
Peace Pipe Ceremony at Tribal Vision Festival.
After that it was pretty much on though, he treated me like his lady friend at workshops/festivals. He had his little travelling companion to play with.
Kaypacha and I at a private home in Santa Fe the morning after a talk
Little did I know that right before this happened, at the workshop I was at in Colorado, he had sex with a young woman who I will not be naming until she also shares her story in the upcoming days. This got ran by Adam Sommer with whom he was collaborating with on a workshop at the time. He promptly was kicked off the Dream Team after he called Kaypacha out for inappropriately engaging with her and contacted Laura about it. I wouldn't hear about this for a few more months when she asked about Kaypacha and I and the nature of our relationship, which I will get around to.
After Colorado/New Mexico we next met for a three week trip in Bali starting in the beginning of December 2015.
Above is the workshop event page description for the Bali retreat.
He had me go shopping with him to pick out gifts for Laura and her kids. Like a cute dress for her and sandals. He would also talk to her on the phone in front of me and genuinely act like it was totally cool and normal to be the way he was with me while he was with her.
Just before our conversation that follows.
Later when the workshop was coming to an end we were swimming in the pool at the retreat and I received a message from the Colorado woman about him.
I lied for him there in this message and didn’t speak to her about it at all because I was holding this secret close. I had only spoken to a couple very close friends about this. Instead I immediately confronted him in the pool over it. He admitted to sleeping with her but said she had snuck into his bed and said that “I was the only other one” he was sleeping with which I totally dismissed immediately. Now talking to this woman, she is next up and will be sharing her story which is not the same as the one he told me of course.
That’s when he dropped the super bomb. That Laura had no idea about any of his going ons and that he was not in an open relationship but totally cheating on her and lying about it. We talked for about an hour about it and I was pretty surprised to say the least. I was too naive to ask him from the get go if his relationship was open. I had always assumed (incorrectly it would seem like most assumptions end up) that he was in an open relationship with Laura. They didn’t seem to ever really travel together. At workshops he would openly hold my hand and act like it was totally normal to do so. He talked of her fondly and often with me and it didn’t seem like he was hiding anything. Boy was I completely wrong!
He then proceeded to tell me “I was very careful about what I said in my vows” which was a big jaw dropper for me! What the hell! I told him he needed to go handle that shit and I didn’t think Laura would feel the same way about that and that he needed to go talk with her ASAP. He was flying out shortly after, he then told me “Maybe next time I see you will be Single” and I shook my head and told him I was his apprentice, not some second choice mistress and walked away with tears in my eyes.
Closing Photo for Bali Workshop
Live Painting to Antennae front row at Envision
From that moment I decided to set the boundary for him and end the sexual part of our relationship. The next time I see him it is at the Envision Festival in 2016. I received a last minute acceptance letter as a Visual Artist/Live Painter. He was speaking at Envision (his land partner is the Producer) and sent me his Shirts and Mantra books to cart along with Laura’s vitamin orders and asked me to pick her up all this shit at the store. I was like whatever, sure. Looking back I find it to be a really weird errand.
So anyway I have her bone vitamins and his merchandise and head down there, not to specifically meet, I had been accepted as one of the installation artists with my black light artwork and live painting. The first time I encounter Laura in person I am topless in the ocean. Ugh was my first thought. Great. Just how I wanted to never meet her. We all cruised for a bit, I gave them the goods and left them alone, did my live painting. I was scheduled to go to another of his workshops following Envision in Guatemala with a Tantra teacher that they just went to the workshop Laura was concerned about when we spoke in Bali last so I would catch him later.
I met with him in Guatemala mid March 2016 and boy is he in trouble!!! He had apparently confessed to Laura that he had been cheating on her with many women and that he didn’t name names but she was super hurt over it and that he was on a tight rope. This workshop I helped out a lot with him. He never takes his breaks so I had suggested he do so and got flooded with all the astro questions intended for him on my breaks. I helped find placements, helped sage everyone, played errand lady for him. This was co-led by an ISTA (International School of Temple Arts) teacher and the workshop was of course centered around sexuality and astrology.
And the preview for it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9BB3-XSg8oA
This trip we had long discussions about our lives, went to dinner, shopping etc. I got super sick with dysentery and projectile vomiting...literally was dying in this photo but managed to say hello and get some dope tapestries across the lake.
Closing Photo
When we parted ways I left him a note saying I would not be meeting with him again, that the student teacher times were done and thank you for the good times on the back of a painting I did. It was the cover of one of the Pele Report Intros actually right after which insured that I would continue chatting with him and not end communication.
Link to the Pele Report:
My excited post and promotion for both of our sites after the fact.
From there we didn’t see each other in person but maintained pretty regular conversations on Whatsapp and had video chats occasionally.
Then Astrology Rising came around in May 2017 I believe and it was an idea he had talked about for a couple years with me and it was important to my friend so I went.
I stayed down the way at my own hotel, did my studies, made my own friends and chilled in the ocean. I barely engaged in many conversations with him and kept my distance from him and Laura as best I could and instead focused on doing my own thing.
I had to head out and did want to say goodbye but got no response when I messaged him. They both came into the restaurant I was in so I invited them to join me and another woman I was sitting with. Laura scoffed pretentiously and said “Noooo”then proceeded to sit at the table directly behind me so Kaypacha and I were back to back.
It was really a big blow to me that night. To have moved forward out of respect for myself, drawn my boundaries with him with no sex and then only showed up to learn from all the presenters and support my friend….it hurt really bad to have studied with him so closely and had so many experiences and get so dissed that he could not and would not even bid me farewell. I cried all night over that one too then left Costa Rica.
I will have to roll back a moment to blend a weird offshoot to our adventures as Teacher/Student/Lovers. He eventually suggested I meet his old friend Misha in Port Townsend because he was so amazing/was a sailor and friend of 16+ years, he described this man as his best friend.
Photo of the duo at Burning man some distant time ago.
Kaypacha introduced me to him via a group email in the June 2015, shortly after we had met.
We remained friends at a distance for some time until he said I could liveaboard his boat Mon Ami since I had been having my Saturn return and the house I was in was costing me upwards of $2600 a month and driving me insane.I was looking for a more alternative lifestyle and to leave Seattle so I took him up on the offer.
I think to one up the famous Kaypacha in some caveman display of masculinity (though this man only wears skirts) or perhaps Kaypacha had described me as a freak or an easy target, he eventually made a move on me in the summer of 2017, about 4-6 months after his divorce. It from the beginning felt very wrong, not good, taboo and kinda predatory but he masked a lot of that with a similar phony New Age way of communicating and “Your such a Wizardess, Goddess, Creatrix”.
We dated for a little while, he isolated me, was super creepy, always coming up behind me when I was cooking and trying to press himself into me. I was super not into it and we did not last long as a couple. He also went to reach for my neck once in a sexual situation and I very noticeably jerked back instantly at the sight of his hand coming for me. There were so many warning signs that this man was shady and my instinct did end up being correct, but I will get to that.
Somewhere around Winter of this time I was watching Misha’s boat and he was travelling Kaypacha and I had a talk about giving me some referrals so that I could have a boost to start my practice and we also talked about me possibly becoming an assistant of his or joining the Dream Team. When I asked to be included he proceeded to tell me that I was “Just a Waitress”. I was so pissed! Just a waitress! And he also said I didn’t have a website so I couldn’t do it. I have had a website since 2016!!! And had been posting my forecasts regularly for a while until I had this devastating conversation where he pretty much had me feeling like I was not anything more than a silly waitress. He also mentioned that he didn’t know I actually wanted to be an Astrologer! I was astounded at the viewpoint he had of me after all that time...I was just some dumb waitress to him with no aspirations. ALL my focus has been stopping being a waitress and becoming my own astrologer and artist, FOR YEARS.
I totally blew up and let him have it for assuming I was some basic servant that had no real goals in life beyond bringing people spicy mayonnaise all day. I am many things besides a waitress and belittling me when I throw boutique mini festivals, do awesome tea lounge installations, am a painter, a Suzuki trained classical Violist, a permaculture farmer, and a pretty decent Astrologer to boot!
We didn’t speak for a while after that. He eventually replied with an email saying that he was considering me for the team, but that I would have to get certified (at the time many on the team were not certified so the excuse was an excuse). So he says that he would be willing to support me in getting certified and that he would do what he could to help me.
He would later use telling Laura about our affair as an excuse to cut me out of his life and not help me with my certification or add me to any team.
Right before breaking up with Misha, in May of 2018 I met with Kaypacha for the very last time. He was speaking at Lighting in the Bottle and he got me a plus one so we could hang to make up for him being such a dick at Astrology Rising. However, before we attended the festival I received this message from Laura, who he had decided to tell for reasons unknown to me about our times together before coming to meet me.
At the point of this letter I had ended my sexual relationship with him two years previously and was pretty put off to get this message from her and I wasn’t super friendly about it. I had already heard of a lot more cheating than she ever would know of. This soulmate shit was totally crazy to me from my perspective. So, your soulmate is a man that hurts you all the time, lies, and cheats with women less than half his age all over the world? Get a better man for real. I also at this point of time was only seeking friendship and counsel from this teacher of mine and festivals are kinda my thing, I wanted to see him despite everything. It had been a while and I considered him one of my dearest friends at the time, even though friendship or teaching me was the last thing on his mind.
He ended up going to Lightning in the Bottle with me anyway after dropping the bomb on Laura. We were supposed to have separate tents and I had told him so in a message and then we got there and he had told them nothing about the separate tents. So we ended up in this Kodiak together against my original plan and wishes ( we were camped in VIP Wisdom Keepers camp). I do wonder now if it was purposefully not requested on his part in order to make sure we would be in the same tent.
I assist at every turn and make sure we have gators to each talk he gave, helped print various ephemeris for all the workshops, and helped festival attendees find their placements in each of his five or six talks scheduled. During talks I did not even sit really, so many needed my assistance to follow, not many knowing how to even look at an ephemeris.
We had many discussions and explored the festival (one of the coolest I have attended!) and in our conversations he spoke to me about Lauren, the other woman that has already came forward with her story. The way he described it is that he was hosting a workshop with this woman, but because they had sex and Laura found out he had to cancel it. Additionally he said he was being blackmailed, however according to Lauren who I stand by completely, she merely billed him for her time spent organizing the retreat and for the non refundable fee associated with booking the venue. He also mentioned some Lilith woman sending him all kinds of licentious photos that were a big turn on and temptation for him and said she was also blackmailing him. It was upsetting to me to say the least because in Guatemala we had discussed that he was going to be on the straight and narrow, commit fully to his relationship with Laura and stop being a cheater…and I was very disappointed to find out that wasn’t what he did, he just found the next 27 year old to prey on and I was a few years post Saturn return and getting more crone like by the day.
On Saturday night we dropped acid and ate some molly and really partied hard. We danced all over. Went on the Ferris wheel. He was a rave kid for the night! We had a great time until we went back to the tent and he tried to hook up with me. I was like going with it at first but then realized he was just trying to play around and do everything BUT fuck me so he could tell Laura he did nothing and I stopped him and called him out for the lie he had been preparing. I told him about my feelings for him and that it really sucked to know I'm just like a toy for him. I sobbed all the rest of the night next to him in the tent.
A parting gift
The next day we woke, we attended the lectures, we talked about me deserving better from the me in my life etc. He gave me this necklace. We floated away on someone's raft. Napped side by side under the shade of a giant oak tree. When it was time for him to go I told him that I would never see him again after this and he said it wasn’t so and gave me a kiss under my wide brimmed hat and left me standing alone in the Kodiak tent. I cried all night and missed the Zhu set I had been waiting all weekend for. I knew that the last page had closed and that chapter in my life was done.
Floating away on a borrowed raft at LIB 2018
After this we exchanged some heated messages and it ended up being that Laura was going to divorce him and take everything she could of his finances if he ever spoke to me or saw me again. Without saying anything he quietly unfriended me then blocked me on Facebook when I confronted him.
This was my last message to him until this all blew up besides one letting him know a couple weeks later that his friend had assaulted me to which I received no reply.
Not long after this email, Misha came back to Port Townsend. After breaking up with him for cheating, he ended up assaulting me in broad daylight in front of my house. He kicked me as hard as he could in the stomach and knocked the wind out of me. The neighbors called the Police and he got charged with assault.
Misha, myself and Kaypacha the day before the two of us left for LIB
I have a standing protection order against this “best friend” that Kaypacha urged me to go hang with (who was also old...though a few years younger than Kaypacha, 52). It was also interesting to note that this assault happened right after we attended Lightning in the Bottle festival, Misha stayed behind in California and I returned to Washington to move out of the shitty bus he had sequestered me in. Misha and Kaypacha met for I think a Mens group or with a bunch of old friends before Misha returned and assaulted me. What kind of “Men’s Group” did they attend that this is the result of that conversation? Misha’s email right before he came over to my place and kicked the shit out of me in the street was awful. The subject line was “Sex Toy is Your Chart”…gee, wonder where that came from?
Email Misha sent before coming to my home to pick up some of his remaining items, instead he attacked me.
I do not have the police report handy but his full name is Michael J Meng and the case number is 18-7009 and it happened in Port Townsend WA on 08/04/2018. He has managed to continue the case for a couple years now in avoidance, however his boat I lived on crashed into the shore and he is now being charged with both assault and and for the still abandon vessel(polluting a State Park on Marrowstone Island). His plea had been to stay out of trouble for the year after the assault, which he didn’t. I also learned of another woman that he strangled and was abusive with that got a restraining order against him after this incident.
This was shared the day that Misha attacked me on 08/04/2018
The message I sent Kaypacha telling him about the assault, only to receive no reply.
This is a message I received last year about the woman that Misha cheated on me with who he also ended up attacking after the fact. This stranger gave me more concern for what happened than my absent teacher that I spent years studying with.
In closing, I would like to state a few things:
To the women out there that are defending this man, consider my story and the stories of the other women coming forward. Do you really find his behavior ethical at all after hearing our collective voices and stories for a teacher to behave in this manner with his students that are less than half his age and about the same age as his daughters? Regardless of if the sex was consensual or not, when you are responsible for holding safe space and a container for students to learn astrology and you are that advertising in your workshop descriptions, having sexual relationships any of them no matter how willing they are is not ethical.
I would also like to address the new members of the “Astrology Butterflies” or whatever title the new team has. Do not offer your services for free ladies, this man is using you. Astrology has value and if you have not read “The Professional Astrologer” I suggest that you do. Providing services for free only cheapens the practice and undercuts those that actually make a living as Astrologers. This man is using you! Additionally you are NOT qualified for this job if you are on women’s posts attacking them for coming forward against this Cult Leader and Predator posing as one of our most cherished Astrologers.
This also goes to his assistants that have witnessed his behaviors and remain in support of him, defending him in either attacking Lauren for coming forward or staying silent and not sharing at all to protect him. You are also being used to keep the secrets safe of a man that preys on young women, it is shameful and I urge you to quit and join the chorus of women that will be rising like a tidal wave. I used to be in your spot, silent secret keepers! Don’t stay silent any longer, more women will endure this abuse if you do.
Using the Sacred Art of Astrology and your profession to seduce and secure sex from those entrusting you with the map of their soul is plain wrong. No person should go to their astrologer for counsel and have them suggest that your chart says you hook up with teachers and then make a sexual advance as soon as the reading is done. This was a scheduled reading! Like all the others at the workshop. Jeannie, his secretary at the time, had this scheduled for us and sent this email ahead so I would have the chart of the moment printed for the reading. It was such a “private reading” that happened in my room!
I am not happy with how in my naivety I defended him and his behavior when confronted with Laura. I however maintain the view that if Kaypacha wants to mess around as much as he does with so many other women that aren’t her then he really shouldn’t be married and he certainly shouldn’t be posing himself and Laura as the model couple that they try to portray to his followers because that isn’t real. These are hurt people and they hurt people in this dishonesty and they hurt each other in living a lie.
I was a young and impressionable woman when I met Kaypacha and as I have matured and looked back it is really not right what I experienced in my time studying and traveling with him. I idolized the man, he knew it and took full advantage of the fact. It cut deeper than any wound I have experienced, this has had far more emotionally damaging effects than any violent assault that has been inflicted on my person, which unfortunately has occurred in my life multiple times. This was a man playing with the hope and aspirations that I hold for becoming an astrologer.
Introducing me to a friend that he later said he was fairly abusive was really not cool for him to do, especially after hearing of my experience with Kai Prince shortly before I met him. I feel like he passed me off to his buddy to enjoy and that given the timing of my assault that something occurred in their meeting conversation about me that prompted the attack. He has never acknowledged this or even reached out to see if I was ok. Regardless of anything, I deserved at least a check in. Additionally the man who he sent me to go boating with knew nothing about sailing! He was only using the boat to lure women to Port Townsend. I even stopped a woman from going after the assault because I saw she was coming from Maui to stay with him and I let her know. He had sent her the same image of the sailboat with sparkles all around it and told her she could liveaboard. Luckily I reached her in time and she canceled. I wish Kaypacha had never introduced me to such an abusive person.
I certainly was an active participant in all of this, and I take responsibility for acting on my own sexual desires. I also am responsible for how I reacted, especially in my communications with Laura that were not compassionate. I have grown tremendously as a person from this experience and have no intention of sleeping with anyone’s husband ever again, even if they are in a Poly relationship, I have no interest. Looking back, I wish I had asked and been more communicative when I was assuming his open status. Communication is so important and neither of us asked, though as the married one and someone 31 years my senior, Kaypacha knew better.
When I heard Lauren’s story this week, I reached out and looking at eachother on a video chat as an artist I couldn’t help notice how similar we look. He has a “type” for sure and it isn’t his Chiron returned wife. Young and naive but not so young that he will get in trouble because we should have “known better”. Hot and young enough to make his older women fans jealous so they don’t speak up and young enough to spend all these years holding onto this old man’s secrets and not speaking up for ourselves.
I have been compiling all of this for the past 5 days and looking back, I feel like I was used and groomed to be the keeper of Kaypacha’s secrets, the receiver of his perverse desires . I spent so much of my hard earned money to travel to see him, which he encouraged and even requested. Though I am “just a waitress” I managed to maintain a downtown Seattle apartment during these travels, pay for all my workshop fees and travel expenses and any online training that he had available. I likely spent around 30k doing so and I wish I had just used that to get my certification with an astrologer of integrity instead of a crooked man that only wanted my body. To me I was the apprentice, to him I was the “sacred whore”.
What do I need from you Kaypacha?
A SINCERE public apology to me and also individually to the other women that he has hurt with his unethical behavior over there years. Additionally that he publicly clear the names of the women he has been calling liars when they were only sharing their true experiences that deeply hurt them. I would also like the apology to me to address what happened with Misha, it was never replied to.
That he owns up to the greater astrological community and admits his wrong doings publicly and stops lying to everyone, including himself, to save his reputation.
That he never again engages in sexual relationships with ANY of his students and that he conducts himself in a respectful and ethical way to ALL women attending his workshops. It is a gross abuse of power to be conducting himself in this way as a so-called spiritual leader in the community.
That he compensate me for the embarrassing yoga video he has sold for 5 years and still does till this day that he traded me a reading for but it was just a ploy to get into my room and pants. I also would like it removed from his website immediately.
My keiki days in Puna.
That he change the name of his weekly report from the Pele Report immediately. As a woman of color that grew up on Kilauea and in Puna I demand that you as a patriarchal and deceitful white man remove “Pele” from the title of your astrological forecasts. You are not on island, from the island, Hawaiian or even someone that Pele would do anything but cover in acres and acres of A’a. It is appropriative and disrespectful to the name of a fierce Goddess that wants nothing to do with shameful men such as yourself.
If Kaypacha is going to continue teaching Kundalini Yoga I ask that he provide his certification for view to the community and also hold himself to the ethical standards set out by teaching Kundalini Yoga and ehtical Student/Teacher practices implied therein.